An honest thought

Since todays anatomy lab has fully bored me to death. His world of speechless life, i think it is good because he still do what he wants and he knows who he is.

But today has nothing to do with my Anat lab. Its about appreciation towards yourself and respect for yourself, either it is good or bad. Can you stand on your ground on your own will and act?

Or should i say, your words. Does it contradict against the nature of yourself?
Must you satisfy everyone to have what you think you deserve or what not. Do you really have the understanding of what could fall upon you if you do not foresee for whats to come?

Or in other words are you prepared, for most days that comes, you fight and fight and fail to stand yet fall again. Are you okay fine with your daily self

To me it is about showing, as much as i say this. It might have been one way with what I say or the opposite. But I do not fear the fact I have been given the authority and power to change my decision.

Having that said, if you are a man with honor, a promise must be kept. I have never promise with all my heart, with sincerity and not fullfill it. I must say I am proud.

PS: when it comea to parents, its on a whole different level, you only say "promise" so you could get away with things and with the hope they feel better.
So yeah...

Unlike the loafy complicatedly rough state of mind that i truly have. I must admit I am not fully what I like, I can't like the whole package of me if compared to most people. But no comparison done here.
A lot of things have change and will change since the start of my journey experiencing this life of just plain truth.

I have discovered my capabilities, what I am mostly about and also part that i cannot escape...my flaws and failures. I hate how I was angry with her, I know in my very best interest she do not deserve that. I am linked and tied by a fragile emotion that we all have; love. It sucks.

A state where some say, with it there is nothing you can't do haha
Funny right, but it is what it is, like i said before...infectious. Even the thought of it.

Life has also been so kind to thought me that once you love, nothing else really matter. You only care about that special individual no matter what, when or where you are.

The more you follow, the more you know
The more you hide, the more you lied
The more you fight, the more cried

The longer you stay, the stronger it stays
The longer you care, the tighter the air
The longer you love...
well...thats really up to you. You have the gift to decide.
It is not wether you are old enough or wise
But is it clear enough to see it right in front of your blind eyes.

Know your boundaries.
What i mean by this is there are no boundaries to any goal but you must know where and when to put it upon yourself, because you are the uncontrolable factor. If you can't control yourself, your life must suck. Doing something you do not want.

A lot of things that made whom you are now, can't be obtain by somebody else, it is uniquely made just for you, for your code.
I have my code, and promises made. And the only thing that seperate me with these  obligations and alterego is death.

If life can be full of lies, then lie harder and better so that you are not to be look at less and weak. There is no place in my heart for people to look down upon, they will never undertand and it is best if they mind their own business because if you alter my course in my journey of my playful playground you are not gonna face me well. Be sure to know i am not someone whom you could mess with.
-To all whom i know-

I admit I am different in a whole big scale with my special one. She is the one that controls my emotions and let me cool myself with her and talk about things that no one else would get it but her. She understands and know me a little more too well then myself haha. I am a PROUD man to have her by my side. I always see more of her everyday, despite the bitterness she have, she is still the best i could ever have.
Thank you.

I am here to wait till "that" time comes. It is just a matter of time. I have enjoyed life even if it is to come sooner. I have no power to control this and I have accepted that not everyone can accept you fully for whom you truly not fakeself you are. (if that make sense) Well the best among us were rejected by most. Congratz!

I just want to say lastly, women are made from our back-bone, it has bends and it is fragile, so please take care of it. Without your back-bone, you cant stand straight and walk and run towards you ideal life.
No matter what wrong she does, she is whom you love. Even if you are right. Be fair.

So you know my dear, my head is full of thoughts far beyond the light clouds and stars that floats in the sky. It is complex like the anatomy of the human body itself and ofc can have diseases and viruses that manipulates.

and to really end this.
I say do what you have to do but know who you are well enough, because you could lose and end up destroying yourself.

Love and have the life that you want, me love...

Peace Out!Since todays anatomy lab has fully bored me to death. His world of speechless life, i think it is good because he still do what he wants and he knows who he is.

But today has nothing to do with my Anat lab. Its about appreciation towards yourself and respect for yourself, either it is good or bad. Can you stand on your ground on your own will and act?

Or should i say, your words. Does it contradict against the nature of yourself?
Must you satisfy everyone to have what you think you deserve or what not. Do you really have the understanding of what could fall upon you if you do not foresee for whats to come?

Or in other words are you prepared, for most days that comes, you fight and fight and fail to stand yet fall again. Are you okay fine with your daily self

To me it is about showing, as much as i say this. It might have been one way with what I say or the opposite. But I do not fear the fact I have been given the authority and power to change my decision.

Having that said, if you are a man with honor, a promise must be kept. I have never promise with all my heart, with sincerity and not fullfill it. I must say I am proud.

PS: when it comea to parents, its on a whole different level, you only say "promise" so you could get away with things and with the hope they feel better.
So yeah...

Unlike the loafy complicatedly rough state of mind that i truly have. I must admit I am not fully what I like, I can't like the whole package of me if compared to most people. But no comparison done here.
A lot of things have change and will change since the start of my journey experiencing this life of just plain truth.

I have discovered my capabilities, what I am mostly about and also part that i cannot escape...my flaws and failures. I hate how I was angry with her, I know in my very best interest she do not deserve that. I am linked and tied by a fragile emotion that we all have; love. It sucks.

A state where some say, with it there is nothing you can't do haha
Funny right, but it is what it is, like i said before...infectious. Even the thought of it.

Life has also been so kind to thought me that once you love, nothing else really matter. You only care about that special individual no matter what, when or where you are.

The more you follow, the more you know
The more you hide, the more you lied
The more you fight, the more cried

The longer you stay, the stronger it stays
The longer you care, the tighter the air
The longer you love...
well...thats really up to you. You have the gift to decide.
It is not wether you are old enough or wise
But is it clear enough to see it right in front of your blind eyes.

Know your boundaries.
What i mean by this is there are no boundaries to any goal but you must know where and when to put it upon yourself, because you are the uncontrolable factor. If you can't control yourself, your life must suck. Doing something you do not want.

A lot of things that made whom you are now, can't be obtain by somebody else, it is uniquely made just for you, for your code.
I have my code, and promises made. And the only thing that seperate me with these  obligations and alterego is death.

If life can be full of lies, then lie harder and better so that you are not to be look at less and weak. There is no place in my heart for people to look down upon, they will never undertand and it is best if they mind their own business because if you alter my course in my journey of my playful playground you are not gonna face me well. Be sure to know i am not someone whom you could mess with.
-To all whom i know-

I admit I am different in a whole big scale with my special one. She is the one that controls my emotions and let me cool myself with her and talk about things that no one else would get it but her. She understands and know me a little more too well then myself haha. I am a PROUD man to have her by my side. I always see more of her everyday, despite the bitterness she have, she is still the best i could ever have.
Thank you.

I am here to wait till "that" time comes. It is just a matter of time. I have enjoyed life even if it is to come sooner. I have no power to control this and I have accepted that not everyone can accept you fully for whom you truly not fakeself you are. (if that make sense) Well the best among us were rejected by most. Congratz!

I just want to say lastly, women are made from our back-bone, it has bends and it is fragile, so please take care of it. Without your back-bone, you cant stand straight and walk and run towards you ideal life.
No matter what wrong she does, she is whom you love. Even if you are right. Be fair.

So you know my dear, my head is full of thoughts far beyond the light clouds and stars that floats in the sky. It is complex like the anatomy of the human body itself and ofc can have diseases and viruses that manipulates.

and to really end this.
I say do what you have to do but know who you are well enough, because you could lose and end up destroying yourself.

Love and have the life that you want, me love...

Peace Out!

It is how it is

life must be what it is created to be

a place of difficulties and challenges that surrounds us without us expecting it

a place we man must not be so comfortable with

a place where nothing is permanent as much as you wish it would be

so be prepared for what to come

cause life is not in your favour

know what matters and what not

rise and be strong

conquer your fears and feelings

remember no one is position to question what you've done

what you are is already been decided from up above

mistakes are bitter but essential to your success

fight and fight and fight

life is a battlefield 

people is either with you or not

they are just a little friction of luck 

live life outside of your box; your very comfort zone

so that you learn and know what is it you really want

who would understand anything that you are

be fair and honest with yourself 

if you talking about what is important

and who can help you in life when everything went blank 

its Allah

and he have blessed you with family who always have your back

always remember:

• when there is a will, there is a way
• what is meant to stay, will stay
• pray and work for it
• expect the un-expectable
• prepare for the worst
• never listen to rumours
• fight for your right
• you are better than you flaws

rise like the sun, every morning; appear like the moon, every night\

fish for what is in the sea; hunt for what is on land

(the act suits to specific place)

don't try to be smarter than half of what you really are

understand and explore the possibilities

everything is reachable